I wanna do this song really soon

8:26 PM

4:39 PM

Yesterday was not a good day.
I won't go through the details
but just in case that someone reads this, I'll just say it out here:


I had to admit though,
I was a total jackass at the time,
a somewhat hating jackass if to put in specific terms,
I wasn't quite sure what was going on in my mind
but boy, did it have some serious repercussions after that night
It was like my mind thought it was right but my heart didn't quite agree with it after saying what I said
There were a few signs though that hinted me about something
the first one was when I was searching pictures for a heart logo for today's Comms problem
There was this picture with a quote I can't remember but it did remind me of something
The second one was when I was on the bus going home from woodlands interchange
listening to music on my psp and I glanced over to the TV Mobile screen which was a seat away from me
There was a quote saying not to relinquish relationships but to correct them and try to salvage them in anyway you can because the relationships you get in life are important later on
That wasn't exactly the quote but my description fits what the quote was trying to say

That made me stay awake for quite some time through the journey to Tampines

This wasn't the first time something like this happened though
the first time it happened, all the strings attached were cut off
no calls
no more talking
no more contacts
nothing

I still remember it though
I kinda regretted it whenever I hear this particular song (which is in the playlist I think)
because that was the song she loved so much
and whenever I hear it, it sinks the mood down to epic proportions

The signs that were given to me today was kinda like someone or something was telling me something
I think I know it now
I guess those signs reminded me of the promise I made to be nice to every girl I meet (guys are an exception) and no matter how shitty the situation has become, I would not hate her for anything or have long term hatred (long term as in a day or two)
and after that, I would treat her like any normal friend
nothing special

just an ordinary friend

but this one I'm dealing with is no ordinary friend
she reminds me of the past
She's got this certain something which hooks me back
which has its creepy similarities
I guess someone upstairs wanted to make the same situation again and see how I can fix it
now that I've learnt so much
thanks to experience and also thanks to her and her(the new and the past respectively)
Right now, I have an idea of what to do but not sure how to execute it
but i will

I won't make the same mistake twice

10:08 PM

Falling in and out of love
With something sweet to throw away.
But I want something good to die for
To make it beautiful to live.
I want a new mistake, lose is more than hesitate.
Do you believe it in your head?
I can go with the flow
But don't say it doesn't matter anymore

I can go with the flow

8:55 PM

Just sit back
And tell me
I'm a liar for this
Don't roll your eyes
Rewind
This happens
Way too many times

So sit back
And tell me that your
Tired of this
I know
I'll grow up someday
But it's 2am
And I'm too high and dry
And I won't come down to

So when I come back
I won't say a word
I know
I've said this before
Don't speak, liar

No we won't talk
We won't say a word
I know
You've heard this before
Don't speak, liar

Sit back
And tell me why
I'm so prone to this
Do you think I'm fond of
Getting you and letting you down
And I'll get mine soon

So when I come back
I won't say a word
I know
I've said this before
Don't speak, liar

No we won't talk
We won't say a word
I know
You've heard this before
Don't speak, liar

And if the story ends here
I can't be surprised to find
Your eyes are open wide
And that I have inspired you

And when you come back
Don't say a word
I know
You've said this before
Don't speak, liar

No we won't talk
We won't say a word
I know
We've heard this before
Don't speak, liar
Don't speak, liar
Whoa-oh

Don't speak, liar

2:02 PM

I'm gonna look the other way now

Sometimes, I don't even know why I bother to try and get to know people, especially people I like, and get somewhere in their lives
When I try and eventually get somewhere, something unexplainable happens and I'm suddenly kept in the dark and wondering what the fuck is going on
Seriously.
If this is how every goddamn move I try to make on a girl ends up, I'll give up trying to get to know more of the opposite sex because it is seriously fucking up my social life
I get disappointments while some lucky bastards get what they want
there's always some kind of fucking loop-de-loop shit happening everytime something blooms and gets somewhere

I wanna stop caring about stupid girls
with stupid pretty faces
and stupid behaviours
and stupid attitudes

I think my guitar is better than any girl out there
she always there
gets the tunes out (depending on how I strum her)
doesn't have stupid behavioral problems or attitudes
doesn't have stupid mood swings
doesn't need long waiting time for a fuckin' contact
and she's always there to calm my nerves down (and make my fingers hurt from strumming, which is good)
and also understands me whenever I'm angry and start strumming wrongly

I LOVE MY GUITAR

11:28 PM

Been playing my guitar for about 5 days now and progress has been kinda good.
Got the C and A minor chords spot on now and my fingers no longer hurt while strumming!
But the points on my fingers feel rough though and takes a bit of getting used to
Trying to nail the G, F, D Chords so that I can finally try my hand at All about you song by Mcfly
Yes, that's the first song I wanna nail before moving on to:

1. Glycerine by Bush
2. Ignorance by Paramore (this one might take bit longer)
3. Letters to you by Finch
4. Darlin' by Between The Trees

There are others but I'll try to do what I can.
The amount of support I'm getting from some of my friends is encouraging
which is good, because it raises the bar on my confidence
=D

Anyway, might be going guitaring with Sam this weekend so that he can teach me more and maybe teach me a tune or two
as long as he's free of course

And oh, not to forget Thursday's outing with Wardah
Had fun!
=D
We played around with my guitar, walked around, ate and walk some around some more before going home at around 7pm plus
She still owes me a visit to Tampines though since I already went all the way to Jurong some months ago just to meet up with her and then continuing all the way to Jurong Point
(Imagine the wait times! =P)

One last note before I sign off
Today's maths lesson was pretty good eventhough confusing as hell
the last few lessons were also good
The only one problem is that the cognitive faci for my class is kinda sarcastic
maybe a bit too sarcastic
which I DO NOT LIKE
especially there was one time she interrupted me when I was explaining something.
=_________=

Anyway, here's hoping for better lessons next week

Au Revoir!
=)

6:20 PM

Guitarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Bought it yesterday at Peninsular Mall with Sam.
105 bucks along with the pitch pipe, bag, booklet and pick (I bought another since the pick they gave me was kinda weird)
Then we went somewhere around Marina Square and strummed a bit and me practising the fingering techniques
Then we went our separate ways (He went to Bedok while I pressed on to Tampines.)
Stopped by the Yamaha Guitar shop to buy a Guitar pick
Then I went home.

Webcammed with Afeeq at around 10 or 9pm like that.
Taught me some tips, tuning my guitar and all
it's feels hard at first trying to get used to the techniques and all but it gets normal if you do it constantly.
Currently trying to learn All about you by Mcfly since Afeeq recommended it to me being the an easy song.

Will guitar again after school.
Can't wait!

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

N oh, today's Web and New Media Comms.
Hoping for a great day!
=DDD

8:13 AM

Today's MATHS

Oh shit....

8:15 AM

8:11 AM

8:11 AM

This is my face after meeting new classmates
You can probably see the forced smile and the bored eyes. My back hair seems a bit messy but looks good.
=D

Anyway, today's module is Web and New Media Comms
1st prob is about making some sort of proposal to make a carnival more attractive and shit using web media tools
I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do
Just gonna try to do the worksheet and see how things go.
Till then

Au Revoir Mon ami!

10:17 AM

Heart-Shaped Box by Nirvana

She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart Shaped box, for weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black

Hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
hey
wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice

...your advice

Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet
Cut myself on Angel Hair and baby's breath
Broken hymen of your highness I'm left black
Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back

Hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
...Your advice

*SOLO*

She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart-Shaped box for weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could Eat your cancer when you turn black

Hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
hey!
wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey!
Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice
Your advice

Your advice


Currently writing a song now. It's an altered version of one of the songs I have in my playlist. Will show it to you once its done


And that song might be the last post I make

7:03 PM

Closing time by Semisonic

Closing time
Open all the doors and let you out into the world.
Closing time
turn the lights up over every boy and every girl.
Closing time
one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer.
Closing time
you don't have to go home but you can't stay here.

I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home...

Closing time
time for you to go back to the places you will be from.
Closing time
this room won't be open 'til your brothers or you sisters come.
So gather up your jackets, and move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend.

Closing time
every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

Yeah, I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home...

Closing time
time for you to go back to the places you will be from...

I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home...

Closing time
every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end...

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6:40 PM

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I've been to W45H!
What the hell?
And to add to that, I'm the only MALAY guy
the rest are either chinese or Indian which doesn't make it any better for me
-___________-

Some of the good things I see in this is that the class isn't that far from the entrance or the canteen so it isn't all that bad
and at least there ARE Malays in my class eventhough all are GIRLS
it's gonna be hard to adjust for 2 or more months without any malay guy to talk to
goddamn it...

************

Tuesday's BBQ was great!
Full of fun moments, drunk moments, weird moments, even weirder moments and lots of stupidity

Group photo!

Setting up tent

Guess who's drunk? (Ans: Both)

9:20 AM

A bit down now

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I guess that's it

12:19 AM