Yesterday was not a good day.
I won't go through the details
but just in case that someone reads this, I'll just say it out here:


I had to admit though,
I was a total jackass at the time,
a somewhat hating jackass if to put in specific terms,
I wasn't quite sure what was going on in my mind
but boy, did it have some serious repercussions after that night
It was like my mind thought it was right but my heart didn't quite agree with it after saying what I said
There were a few signs though that hinted me about something
the first one was when I was searching pictures for a heart logo for today's Comms problem
There was this picture with a quote I can't remember but it did remind me of something
The second one was when I was on the bus going home from woodlands interchange
listening to music on my psp and I glanced over to the TV Mobile screen which was a seat away from me
There was a quote saying not to relinquish relationships but to correct them and try to salvage them in anyway you can because the relationships you get in life are important later on
That wasn't exactly the quote but my description fits what the quote was trying to say

That made me stay awake for quite some time through the journey to Tampines

This wasn't the first time something like this happened though
the first time it happened, all the strings attached were cut off
no calls
no more talking
no more contacts
nothing

I still remember it though
I kinda regretted it whenever I hear this particular song (which is in the playlist I think)
because that was the song she loved so much
and whenever I hear it, it sinks the mood down to epic proportions

The signs that were given to me today was kinda like someone or something was telling me something
I think I know it now
I guess those signs reminded me of the promise I made to be nice to every girl I meet (guys are an exception) and no matter how shitty the situation has become, I would not hate her for anything or have long term hatred (long term as in a day or two)
and after that, I would treat her like any normal friend
nothing special

just an ordinary friend

but this one I'm dealing with is no ordinary friend
she reminds me of the past
She's got this certain something which hooks me back
which has its creepy similarities
I guess someone upstairs wanted to make the same situation again and see how I can fix it
now that I've learnt so much
thanks to experience and also thanks to her and her(the new and the past respectively)
Right now, I have an idea of what to do but not sure how to execute it
but i will

I won't make the same mistake twice

10:08 PM